Life plan life plan life plan.
I have a college degree.
I have a job that is related to that degree. Ok. That is good news because not everyone can do that.
I pay for all my own stuff. Including a car payment and my phone bill and lots of other bills that I don't like to think about because it makes me feel too old and poor. This means I don't rely on mom for anything (wellllllllll OK sometimes I use her money to put gas in my car).
I want to get married at some point and have some babies that I can buy cute outfits.
Ultimately, I would like to teach high school film/media classes to juniors and seniors. Or English or something. No. Probably the film/media thing.
I don't think I want to be in Provo anymore because I feel like I'm stuck in a vortex of stasis. It's like my feet are stuck to a launching pad. Everything feels temporary. Plus male/female relationships are all kinds of jacked up.
I don't know where to go next or when to go there.
I don't have a lot of money saved up. Well I do, but I'm too scared to spend it on anything because I feel like it should be in a 401K or something.
I'm running away to Africa for 2 weeks.
Sometimes I play Roller Coaster Tycoon 3 to avoid grown up decisions.
I want to watch all of the movies Queen Latifah has been in.
Some days I feel like all options are good. Some days I feel like all options are bad. Well mostly just scary.
What I've decided is this: How my life changes doesn't matter as much as making the choices to cause change. I just need to move in any direction.
What if I move to Connecticut? That was my thought this evening.